I’ve just noticed that our attention spans grow shorter and shorter; and perhaps everybody hooked to the internet right now have attention deficit disorder. The world is instant; instant noodles, instant meals; we expect things faster and faster. Materials delivered ASAP; Sexual gratification delivered on the first date. Nothing is worth waiting for when it can be had immediately. Want, desire, instinct. The instant gratification tears down our ability to think.

In todays “get it now!” society, where waiting is a thing of the past, thinking has become obsolete, a passe`, and humiliating. But it has also become more dangerous. And so it is being stamped out while instinctive responses are being reaffirmed as the dominant trait in humanity, the animal, the worker bee. Thinking is difficult, and it is rarely fun. Ignorance is bliss, the well-told axiom goes, and no one wants the smile wiped off their face; and admittedly, I for one grow weary of thinking deep thoughts– which is why sometimes I say “fuck it” to the world alot, and just head out into the bustling Manila night life and get myself sloshed, high, flirted with, and get laid all in a gallant, carpe diem! fashion.

How did I manage to turn myself into a junky? Simple. Because of the instant world; because of trying to hasten the process of life; because of wanting to be old when in fact I am young. I resent the fact that I am influenced too much by corporate propaganda, the media and the internet, I resent the fact that I have succumbed into the lure of the “fun” life; life without thinking; of living life gauged against somebody elses standard; the cool.